Wednesday, 19 May 2010
It's so hard getting ready to move house.....
I veer wildly between determination, despair, productiveness, and those terrible days where I seem to put a lot of effort in but don't get anywhere.
I get tired, and find I'm just moving things around, creating more disorder, rather than clearing and sorting. I put things down and can't find them again - it took over half an hour yesterday to find where I'd left the paint trays - on top of the boiler, as it happens; I'd been standing on a stepladder in the cupboard at the time - and I'm up and down the stairs (35 of them!) far more times than is necessary, distracted and disorganised, constantly forgetting what I've gone up/down for.
I have moments of profound self-pity about having to do this all on my own, until I remember that all my friends and my son are either at work or have busy lives of their own, and that their view of me is of someone with the great luxury of time on her hands, with nothing better to do than sort the detritus of years.... Quite true.
There are some successes - 10 bags of shredded paper and a full-to-bursting recycling bin this week, a car boot full of intended charity-shop items, an attic which is slowly taking shape, turning into a neatly-packed and stacked box-room rather than a Room of Shame. But I am reminded at every turn that being a hoarder brings its own punishment....
And all this activity is only to get the house ready for valuation! How put-upon shall I feel when there are viewings? The people across the road were beside themselves after a weekend of viewings, and they've moved house countless times. I'm dreading it.
But although it's hard, it's not Too Hard. I have no intention of giving up. The yard (still waiting for its own spruce-up) might be trying its hardest, but it's not the garden I have promised myself and the team. It's the dream of a real garden and a quiet road that drives me on; the house clearing is just one of the steps on the road to realising that dream.
Now, where did I leave the ladders..... oh, and my specs..... and the screwdriver....
Posted by rachel at 13:58